today i was at a christmas party for the Peel Environmental Youth Alliance, because they had invited last year's executive. as we were sitting on the floor listening to what the different schools had done this year to promote environmental awareness, i was amazed at everything they had done. in my mind, i kept thinking, wow... i can see God working so strongly in this. they're doing things we didn't even dare dream about ... it developed a feeling.. of tuggingness inside of me. and i was confused.

i'm not sure why i felt so.. inspired and in awe with these kids.. when.. i had never been involved with the organization to such a high extent.. i mean, i was part of the executive but i had never truly committed, and i know i didnt have the dedication that this year's kids do.. but.. i know it wasn't a guilty feeling.. or a lecture-type thing.. i kept thinking, maybe i should join EnviroWestern like i was thinking about before i got turned off by certain people at the booth. but at the same time, i was being told it was something more.. i just don't know what... i dont even know why i'm sharing this.